Category: PREGNANCY

To push or not to push? (writing my birth plan)

To push or not to push? (writing my birth plan)

So, with D Day being a mere 3 weeks away and after last weeks scare, it’s time to really sit down and think about my Birth Plan. I think I’ve said before that as well as we can plan things, at the end of the […]

Reduced Fetal Movements at 36+5 Weeks Pregnant

Reduced Fetal Movements at 36+5 Weeks Pregnant

Well there really is never a dull moment around here and our little drama baby is definitely living up to her name! After a stressful few days, we ended up on the antenatal ward at the hospital yesterday after our normally super active baby decided […]

It’s not just me anymore

It’s not just me anymore

In just a few weeks, this tiny little wriggler living in my tummy will join us in the outside world. I will have a daughter who relies on me and her Daddy for everything. For food, drink, a home. For love, guidance and protection. From the moment I looked down and saw those two pink lines appear, every decision I have made over the last 36 weeks and five days has been for her. In fact, looking back, most of the decisions I’ve made since I left school were driven by my desire to have a family of my own.

In 2013, I made the decision to remove a person from my life after nearly ten years of living with their violent and aggressive outbursts, their lies, their threats and their bitterness, in a bid to protect myself from the frequent turmoil they would bring into my world whenever they were around. It was a form of self preservation. This person had  stepped over one too many lines, placed one too many cherries on the top of the overly iced cake and I could take it no more. Biology & bloodlines had been the only thing that had stopped me walking away before, but even that didn’t matter any more.

That decision however, was not a popular one. Not with that person or with others who had been blinded by the lies he told and had happily accepted them while we chose not to air our dirty laundry in public. Cutting ties with him meant losing a lot of other people from my life too, whether that was their intention or not.

When I announced I was pregnant, there was a lot of expectation that all would be forgiven, forgotten even, because suddenly my daughter’s arrival would mean this person would inherit a new ‘family role’ and therefore somehow deserved to be a part of our lives again. The phrase “It’s not just you you have to think about any more.” was even used at one point.  It sort of left me flabbergasted for a while there and for the tiniest moment (literally about 3 seconds) I began to doubt myself.

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My growing family

However, as I sit here today, I am reminded how very lucky I am to be surrounded by people who would never, ever put me in a position where I felt threatened or vulnerable. I am loved by the most amazing man who really would do anything for me and who will be the best father our daughter could ask for. I have my biggest and most loyal allies in my Mum & sister who together are a force to be reckoned with. I have friends and family close to me who I can rely on for pretty much anything at the drop of the hat. And with a little help from all of them, I am the strongest most happiest I have ever been. I have everyone in my life I could ever need.

I do not trust this person around me, so as a mother why in the world would I trust him with the most precious person in my life? Some might call me selfish and stubborn, heartless maybe, jeeze this morning I was even called evil but whoever told me that it’s not just me anymore was right, there is a little girl about to enter the world who needs her Mummy to be strong and to protect her from all the things that could harm her little world. And that’s just what I will do.

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The Final Countdown

The Final Countdown

Today marks the beginning of two weeks annual leave from work that lead to the official start of my maternity leave. It also means that we are only one month away from our due date! I feel like it has taken both a life time and next to […]

35 Weeks Pregnant

35 Weeks Pregnant

So, here we are then. Today I am 35 + 2 weeks pregnant and while the weeks really are flying by the days feel like they last forever! The extra energy I mentioned in my last update seems to be long gone. I am super […]

A Must Have Wardrobe Essential for your Maternity Photo Shoot

A Must Have Wardrobe Essential for your Maternity Photo Shoot

When I booked my pregnancy photo shoot, I knew straight away the kind of looks & feel I wanted to achieve. I’d chosen three different settings for each different look – our home for intimate bare bump shots, my baby shower to capture the family celebrations and out on location for elegant & natural shots.

This meant I had quite a shopping list when it came to creating my photo shoot wardrobe and I turned to some of my favourite fashion & maternity brands to find the perfect collection of outfits. One of those pieces, perhaps the show stopper of them all, was the Annette Snow dress from the Mamalicious range at Yummy Mummy Maternity which I chose for our on location shoot.IMG_0966 IMG_0969

The dress itself is a truly beautiful occasion dress, made from elegant creamy white lace fabric and lined with a soft silky material for extra comfort.

The chic maxi style fell gracefully over my growing bump and combined with the flattering empire line cut, soft v neck and capped lace sleeves it created a really lovely silhouette.IMG_0873 b

Though designed more for formal occasions, the Annette maxi proved to be the perfect choice for gorgeous maternity photos and stood out beautifully against the natural greens, yellows and whites of our surroundings out on location.Maternity Photo Shoot Kent Photography

Also included were two ribbon waist ties, one in snow white and one in taupe. Whether you are looking for the perfect outfit for your bump shoot, a special occasion or perhaps even your summer wedding. The Annette Snow Maternity Maxi Dress is a bargain at £45+p&p.

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My Maternity Photo Shoot with Alison Lewis Photography

My Maternity Photo Shoot with Alison Lewis Photography

One of the things I knew I always wanted to do during my pregnancy was to have a professional maternity photo shoot. I have swooned over beautiful bump photos of friends and fellow bloggers over the years and have spent many an hour flicking through […]

My Baby Shower

My Baby Shower

It hardly seems possible that 2 weeks have passed since my friends and family threw me the Baby Shower of all Baby Showers! Family and friends, old and new, from near and far all came to celebrate our little girl’s impending arrival and it was […]